Tuesday, May 10, 2005
i'll say it straight. i dont like living in self-denial. i don't like supressing my feelings.i don't like telling myself that i dislike someone when i actually do like the person... is that so wrong? apperantly so... because there are some things which are taboo... which are absolutely confidential...which i just can't say no matter hw badly i want 2 or am tempted 2...why? for the simple fact that they affect others and their feelings...by right...it's a major exam year...so i'm supposed to be focused...FOCUSED!!! and am i? nope.
i'm disgusted with myself...instead i'm here..thinking bout things that are absolutely irrelavent...completely out of point...so why am i letting this affect me???this is all serious crap...people keep telling me i've changed...tat i've become more..well...dunno the word 2 use...bad? reckless?rebellious? something along those lines i guess..have i changed? i dunno...maybe? flirt? well...tat's jus 2 bad isn't it...crushes seriously suck okie...esp. these sort..:(..but 2 bad...just time 2 wake up! get back 2 my studies..and the rest of the world can just go 2 their bloody crappy hell....i am in such serious shit...
``Danced at ; 10:20 PM